Friday 25 March 2016

So I found this...........

Hi,

Couple of things before I start: 
Uno- this blog now has an Instagram, go follow @theCPblogger for updates (And there is a link at the bottom as well)
Dos- I am FINALLY on Easter break whoop-whoop!
Tres- we've only gone and got 6k views.....PARRRRRRRTTTTTYYYYYYYY. THANKS YOU LOT!

Now lets get on with this...

Okay, so before I properly started blogging, I entered a writing competition and nothing really came about it; so the other day I was looking at my entry and well its quite something. All I'm going say is that we were given the brief it had to be based on an experience or opinion.......  


Just because I’m disabled it doesn’t means I’m thick or a baby!

Ok then, as a 12 year old disabled girl, who goes to a mainstream school, I’m going to get bullied, aren’t I? So far, in my eventful life, I haven’t been constantly bullied, as I’m very fortunate to have brilliant friends who stick up for me; it’s not really that bad. Yes, I may have a psycho arm, which is ruthless and without me controlling it - most of the time – it hits people without warning (which is thanks to my cerebral palsy!) I have to have a bulky wheelchair that gets me a lift pass, which to be completely honest with you is one of the perks of being disabled, but yet having the chair means I have to leave for classes earlier to get to them on time-so it has its positives and negatives. For me, it’s not that big of a deal because ‘I just shake it off, shake it off’. Sorry for the Taylor swift reference, I couldn’t stop myself!
So, the one thing that really bugs me about school, is the fact that people automatically, without even thinking, assume that I’m thick or I’m a big baby. This is because in my profile, it says in big… bold… letters SEN. The easiest way to describe what SEN means is, that I am disabled! When people see these three letters they normally start treating me like a toddler, I’m a year 8 pupil for the record, stop treating me like a freaking baby!
For example, way back in year 6, our teacher was working with my table and we were doing about ww2 evacuees. I was working by myself, not struggling or anything, but she still came and sat next to me. I thought to myself “well this feels a bit intimidating and strange but ok, I’m fine with Miss ****** sitting that close to me whilst I work.” (I’m not saying her name and also it isn’t a swear word that I use as nick name for her either! Promise!). So I carried on working. When I was starting to do the arty bits she asked me “Oh Ruthie, let me help you with that.” She proceeded to move my work nearer her; in my head I was thinking, “Oh hell no!” but I said instead “Oh I can cope on my own thanks.” Came out. And I slid my work back. You may think that was just her trying to help me, but the thing that got me was later that lesson I showed her the work and miss ******* said “you are such an inspiration Ruthie, I couldn’t be as motivated as you.” Or something along those lines, which would be fine and I wouldn’t be offended. However, the tone of her voice, which was sort of patronising ‘as if I just went on the potty and did a wee’ well done voice, one where she spoke slowly as though I couldn’t understand her! Like why? I’m not a 2 year old. That’s a memory that I’ll remember because it’s the first time I felt someone was patronising me.
Many people, don’t think some people have a disability if it is not a physical one, such as dyslexia, but as soon as they are told that you have a disability, the patronisation starts. 1800 babies are born in the UK, a year, with cerebral palsy. It is individual to the person, so it can effect on side of the body (called Hemiplegia), it can effect one limb (called Monoplegia) and many more. There are different strengths of each type of cerebral palsy so it can sometimes only affect a child’s speech. This is unnoticeable until the child starts to talk. People, such as teachers, wouldn’t treat people with a disability which is not noticeable differently, so why treat people with a disability that is noticeable like 2 year olds!

Do you want to know why I think people have this idea, that if a person has a disability then they should be treated different to the norm? Well when you think about disabilities you see the differences between a person with a condition and one without that condition. You don’t see the similarities, so in theory in a social situation, you know that the person is different so thus treating him/her not in the same way as ‘normal’ person.  There is one question that I think we need to know the answer to. What is the definition of normal? For all we know, having a disability is normal! But there is a flaw, no-one knows, at first, what the person’s capabilities are resulting in you treating them like they are younger than they are. This is fine until the point when you know what their capabilities are, but you still treat them like they are younger because it is easier or you don’t have an understanding of how they work. Then it turns into discrimination or patronisation which isn’t right. So just because we are disabled don’t treat us any different to other people! 

I don't even know what this is, you can tell I was new at this. I think we can all say this was my first rant. Oh and shout out to my best friend who edited this for me, I AM SO SO SORRY.


This is so cringe I can't say much more.

Happy Easter

Byeeeeeeeeeee

Sunday 20 March 2016

Achievements vs Ableism

Hi,

Okay then, so I've been meaning to post something about this for a while now and I've finally found some motivation from somewhere so I might get on with it.

As a PWD, it makes me deeply uncomfortable how quick we rattle off our personal accomplishments for the sake of impressing our able bodied or disabled peers. Why do we, in the 21st, supposed 'equality' fuelled era, anticipate that an achievement such as 'I went to the shops without a carer' won't be treated seriously and congratulated,as it's something society expects everyone to be able to do.
It's perfectly fine to be proud of your achievements or milestones, but you shouldn't have to prove how "non-disabled" you are to gain social legitimacy or praise.

And as for the disabled community, Distancing yourself from negative,uncomfortable or socially-unaccepted disability clichés belittles many PWD who don't have the level  support or don't have the ability/stamina to accomplish what you may of done. It's just as important to acknowledge that disabled people that are home bound or live in poorer nations are just as valid as the ones who travel the world with countless degrees.

So in short I'm saying that disabled legitimacy shouldn't be Dependent upon conforming with ableist expectations on life experience and productivity.

Byeeeeeeee

Wednesday 16 March 2016

Reminder :) :

Hi,

Today I've been seeing a lot of posts on my social media reminding the reader that they always need to strive to work harder than they all ready are.

I just want to remind you lot that working hard all the time, for some, its just not possible. Some people burn out easily. Some are PWD, both mental and physical, that keep them from accomplishing as much as they think they should.

Sure I agree we should all work hard,but ONLY as hard as you know you can. Push yourself, but please don't push yourself to your absolute edge if its dangerous for you to do so. Remember a little bit of work every day adds up. Don't beat yourself up if you can't exert yourself to the level everyone else says you should.

Remember, that whatever pace you go, you're still talking steps in the right direction.  

Byeeeeeeeeeee

(P.s  PWD =  People with disabilities)

Tuesday 1 March 2016

I'm fed up

Hi,

I'm fed up. I'm fed up with having a psycho arm, I'm fed up with pain dictating what I can and can't do and I'm fed up of have teachers talking down to me because of this and not understanding. Ughhhhh I've had enough.

Today I made a promise that I'm not sugar coating anything anymore 'cause what's the point?  Why hide what you feel like and then nothing happens to change it? I don't care if its going to change what I'm like- I need to start being real.

To be honest I feel sorry for some of my teachers. Like they put so much effort into lesson planing and then they have to change it all to be inclusive and it's like a rush of panic to their brain, and it's all because of me- the one that has to do things differently. I bet they hate changing the lessons because they are stretched thinly enough with this stupid government in charge. Honestly I take my imaginary hat off to them.

Today I realised that pain really decides whether or not I can do something. Like I've noticed it for a while now but what really scares me is that at the end of the day I 'can't wait' - not the right way to put it- to have a paracetamol to stop it. I mean I'm 12 years old not 88 why is it that bad? I shouldn't need it like that. Now before you all think yeah but I have a disability and stuff but do you really think that I want to be different- I have that enough already.

And you know what I'm so stubbornly ashamed about? Sitting out in stuff like PE. I know it's the stubborn cow side of me but I feel like I'm waste doing it. I should be doing what everyone else is in my head I can and it's not like I'm using the disability card to get out of it, it's just  the claw of pain pins me down and I can't. I absolutely hate it because for me, I would never want to get out of something at school, yes I'm a geek, teachers pet or whatever but I enjoy learning, so sitting out is so out of character  in my head. I'm not one to have many worse enemies but for the few I do have I wouldn't even wish it on them. So that's what it really feels like.

It's funny that my best mate thinks I'm upset all the time, nah it's just pain.

Wow that's a rant and a half (wasn't meant to be) !

Byeeeeeeeeee